Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Switching of the Gears

     So, I am changing gears once again. I don't know what it is or why it happens, but I am moving this here blog in a new direction. We are going to move toward bigger and brighter things within the realm of education as a student which will serve as an educational archive of what I know, and also include my developing philosophy.
     As you may or may not know, I am in the last year of my undergraduate program for certification in elementary education through the University of Wisconsin-Oskosh. I love it, I feel like I am doing what I was suppose to do in this moment. I am where I believe I am needed the most.
    I know I am fortunate to have found a place to stand in the world, and to do something beyond myself and to teach my own children by example. I am grateful for the opportunity and I know that after this year my life will never be the same.
     I have finally had the chance to watch a part of Dr. Maya Angelou's services which were held on my birthday. Oprah is a great speaker and a powerful force on her own, I loved this segment because it's fundamental in what we all know, what we all believe, and how we feel when we know a higher power is at work in our lives. Enjoy and watch it again just to make sure you feel it. 



Thursday, January 30, 2014

Tiny House I Want!



I saw the tiny house blog in 2011 and I have enjoyed the articles ever since they posted a dream home on a house boat that stole my heart. I have been mulling over my personal need to store, and buy in bulk, and make the most of my purchases through our local Bountiful Basket organization. 

Take a few minutes to read the OTIS article and tell you aren't attracted to the idea of minimalist living and saving a few thousand dollars a year. The building they created is amazing!

I would love a garden shed or even a small house this size for my children to do their homework, for me to sew from, or even my kids' father to spend time with them at and explore our home and help with their ongoing projects. 

Mobility and low maintenance living are gifts I hope to instill and give my own children. My research and tracking articles like this are keys and building blocks for me to foster that strength within each of them.

Friday, November 22, 2013

November Check In

I love checking in. I think it is slowly becoming one of my favorite things. I like the organization and the thought I have to invest in creating these. November is one of my favorite fall months, nice and cool and NO 'SKEETERS!

I am listening to Love Supreme by John Coltrane this winter. I know it sounds a little morbid for those non listeners, but if you have no idea what I am talking about, check out this hyperlink to get a little better idea of what your soul is missing out on. I've been listening to this piece for about 10 years and I swear I hear something new every season I find the time to enjoy it. There are familiar pieces and there are those wonky bits that I don't have the ear for but; hope to find a better understanding of in looking over the musical arrangement.

Children are growing up, I love it but I am a little sad about it. I love my three babies and the birth of my oldest child was a bit traumatic for me. I had a cesarean section seven days after my due date. My son was 10 lbs. 4 oz. and 23.5 inches long on November 14, 2007. I had never had surgery before his birth and I've had two cesareans after him. I had opted for a v-bac with my second child but my doctor closed his University of Montana office in my 7th month of pregnancy and moved his practice to Las Vegas. 

I found out I was carrying my son while I was separated from his father for over 4 months. He lived and worked in the area but we were not able to make a life together because of some of his personal problems he wasn't able to deal with. I had a wonderful and magnificent friend who was going through a gang of stresses who became my lovable room mate and she was with me through a majority of my pregnancy. I demanded my sons' father be available to me during the end of my pregnancy because I was afraid, and I couldn't handle the pity people felt for me and wanted to not have anyone else involved in this part of our life. 

My son is growing into a wonderful person. He has a great heart and is a good person, I feel it, I see it, and I know he is one of the greatest things I've ever done with my life. Through his belief in me I know I made the right decision to begin a new chapter in my life as a single parent, going to school full time, and working at his school.

One of the ladies in the Cohort summed it up last night in saying, "I can't make it to my son's game tonight because I have class but I told him, two more years son and we'll be in a better place. You've just got to hang in there with me."

We spent a little bit of time after class looking at possible scholarships we could apply for. Working and still being broke is the hardest thing to have to face. I have a full time job, I go to school full time but I pay for my children's insurance as well as my own. I also pay for our dental and vision plan as well as a little bit invested each pay check in a 403(b) for retirement. I am feeling it this year, I took a pay cut to work in the classroom as a para instead of the previous office position I held in the school district I work for. I believe the pay cut is worth the experience that it will provide but it's hard to manage.  A scholarship would help at the end of this year, I could use the extra cash to pay for an outstanding propane bill and buy the kids a new pair of shoes and a few outfits for the spring semester. 

I found my motivation-my son lost his first tooth four days after his 6th birthday. He came to see me right after he cleaned his lip up and had his tooth in a container. The pride and independence he had was awesome. I love it and I know that I am right where I need to be.